Remembering Infinity

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Remembering Infinity: The End?


Death is a mere transition in consciousness. (Original image credit:

Death is a mere transition in consciousness.
(Original image credit:

In my early childhood years, death was a complete mystery to me. I never gave it a great deal of thought—as it merely seemed to be something that would occasionally happen to the hero in a movie. In my limited experience, he’d valiantly fall in a hail of gunfire or somehow take his last dying gasp after saving someone from a similar fate.  Sometimes, while playing “cops and robbers” or “army”, I’d re-enact scenes from my favorite TV shows or movies with my friends. I’d die a sudden and tragic death—most often from a barrage of imaginary bullets or a horrific grenade explosion. I’d fly dramatically through the air, land in a heap in the tall grass, and painfully struggle to take my “final” breath.

I couldn’t hold my breath for long however, so I’d usually resume breathing rather quickly. Sometimes, when I didn’t get up right away and start carrying on the battle as another character, I’d lay in the grass, silently trying to imagine what it would be like to really be dead. I’d close my eyes and lie as still as I could. Was it like going to sleep, where one just never woke up again? If one was buried, did they just lay there in the grave, feeling the heavy darkness and smelling the musty smell of the earth that covered them? That thought always gave me “the creeps”. On occasion, I’d imagine what it would be like to see everyone at my funeral. There would be mountains of flowers everywhere, of course, and a grieving crowd of thousands—with tearful mourners praising me in lavish eulogies that would last for days.

My childish musings about death and dying came to a sudden end however, when my maternal grandmother was diagnosed with cancer. After a valiant but short battle against it, she died of the disease. At the age of nine, I’d never lost anyone I knew before and, until then, death had never seemed real. I’ll never forget the evening my family and I attended her visitation service and the moment I first saw her casket. It was placed high on a draped platform and surrounded by flowers in the center of the funeral home’s hushed, dimly lit viewing room. I was frightened and, when it came time to say goodbye, I refused to approach the casket or the body in it. With no small amount of reassurance, my father took my hand, walked me over, and lifted me up to see. Through fearful, tear-filled eyes, I was both horrified and amazed to see how lifeless and two-dimensional my grandmother’s body appeared. It seemed as if she had been replaced with a figure made of wax. I just couldn’t understand how someone I loved could be alive one moment—and forever gone the next.

As I think about my limited childhood understanding and thoughts about death, I’m grateful for the amazing expansion of experience that has led to my present understanding. I now know that life is eternal—and what we perceive as death is merely a transition from one level of consciousness to another. It’s been a long process of spiritual discovery and many unanswered questions remain, but each and every day I become more and more confident in this knowledge. Now, when I think about my last breath, I try not to concern myself with the when, how, or where of it—although my intention is to hold that day off for a good, long time. Instead, I try to concern myself more with the quality of the time I have left. My new focus is on how much change I may make for the better and how much I may learn and enjoy the wonderful life I’ve been given. And that, to me, has made all the difference.



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6 thoughts on “Remembering Infinity: The End?

  1. There is a weird synchronicity between your posts and my life! I was at a funeral last Thursday and after that I tried to face the fear of death inside me, searching on the web for photos of… dead people from forensic science. It is not something that people want to know. I try to understand how it is possible to be full of life now and some day in the future… a nothing. Death has to be a lie. By the way, the fear of the future is connected to the fear of death. This is why we are so unconsciously preoccupied with the inevitable…

    You are right. Our main focus should be “the quality of the time we have left”. I mean, before we “go”, we must embrace LIFE.

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    • Thanks for the visit and for sharing your experience, Heartvirtue! But I don’t think there’s anything at all weird about it! 🙂 The further I go on this journey, the more I understand that synchronicity is a perfectly natural and wonderful thing. It shows me that we are continually being guided to the things, circumstances, and people we need in order to grow. That’s all synchronicity is…and I think the more “in tune” we are with our Higher Self, the more we notice it in our lives. I see it as an incredible, amazing gift.

      Insofar as “Death” is concerned, there’s just far too much evidence in the way of Near-Death Experiences, past-life memories, spirit communication, etc. for me to believe that our conscious awareness just ceases to exist when the physical body dies. We are not our bodies…they are just the temporary form we take to have this experience here. I love the analogy that our bodies are like a car and the consciousness (our true essence) is the driver. When this “car” finally craps out, we just move on to a new one! The bodies we leave behind just recycle back into the Earth to support new life, but they are not us–even though we’ve come to think of them as such. 🙂

      Even mainstream science has proven that you can’t destroy energy–you can only change it’s form. In it’s most basic form, everything, including “us” (not just our bodies, but our consciousness) IS energy. Therefore, our essence cannot be destroyed. It merely moves on to another reality or another dimension after the physical body dies.

      You make an interesting point about our fear of the future. I never thought about it in that way, but you’re right. So many people see it as moving closer to death. Once you no longer fear death, the future becomes something entirely new!!!

      Anyway, that’s what I’ve come to learn and accept as my Truth. Thanks so much for the comments! Have a terrific day!

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  2. What a touching and very “real” part of your life you have just shared my friend. Much like yourself, when I was younger that was very much my view on death as well. When the day came a few years back and it was I that was hearing those words “you have cancer”, death came to me again. But not in a fearful way. It was yet another stepping stone for me, you see, when I was told I had cancer, it was the death of even more of the negative…choosing not to give in, but instead living life with no regrets and loving all the way through it. Every single day is another day of learning, growing, and embracing the gift of NOW. Many blessings to you Stargazer and may peace always be yours. ~Matthew

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    • Thanks so much, Matthew! I’m so grateful that you found the strength and love to be here today! The way you’ve chosen to respond to your health challenge is a true testament to your courage–and an inspiration to others. Light and Love will always lead your way!


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  3. I loved reading about your childhood re-enactments 🙂 I was lucky enough to have connect with people in spirit from quite a young age so in the respect of our lives ‘ending’ i’ve pretty much always known that isn’t true. Very often i am in the fortunate position to be able to pass messages over from the spirit world to people in the physical world and it always amazes me how beautiful and incredible our souls and existence really is 🙂 My focus on death when i was younger was more about losing the people around me from ‘this’ world as i would then worry about what would happen to me. For the most part though, death has been something that has taken up a lot of my mind space because of all the mistakes i’ve made in this life and how that will affect my vibrations when it is my time to pass over.
    Life sure is making the most of the ‘here and now’ and the quality of that time 🙂
    I just love your blog xx

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    • Thank you so much! I enjoyed thinking about them again. Ah, the innocence of childhood. I think it’s wonderful that you had the ability to connect with others in spirit at such a young age…although I’m sure that must have come with its own challenges! I’ve known a couple of people who’ve had experiences like that too, so I’m fortunate to have been close to it–even though I’m not conscious of any ability to do it on my own. In any case, I’m very grateful to people like you who HAVE the ability and share that knowledge with others. That helps those of us who don’t have first hand experience overcome their own doubts! It’s also terrific that you’re willing to pass messages over. I’m sure it’s a wonderful gift to the recipients. I agree too about the beauty of our existence…and I don’t even think we really realize more than a tiny, tiny percentage of it! 🙂

      Where “mistakes” are concerned, I’m not sure I believe in them anymore. 🙂 I’ve come to view them simply as “lessons”. Past experiences and lessons are all about learning and GROWTH. It’s difficult at times, because many were (and still are) painful, but I try to be grateful for all of them–for if I hadn’t had them, I wouldn’t have learned those lessons, nor would I be the person I am today.

      I think your vibrations are great! 🙂

      Thanks so much for visiting and for sharing your thoughts! I’m so glad to hear that others appreciate what I’ve written. Lots of Love and Light to you and yours!


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